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happy lunar new year~

2012-01-23T20:21:00.002+08:00

first day of chinese lunar new year~

新年快乐！^_^ 身体健康，天天快乐，工作顺利，读书顺利，心想事成！yeah!! =)

the day ended well. went around for the usual visiting.. tml is a day to rest at home~ =) saturday gonna be very busy with all the visitings =)

ben is back~ hope to arrange some time with him to meet up together with grace etc... yeah...

so looking forward to sat~

have a good chinese new year holiday~ =]

signing out... 8.27pm

year 2012

2012-01-01T23:05:00.007+08:00

hello! happy new year! ^-^ is the first day of year 2012. and am counting down to school reopen! 1 more day! a little excited but yet a little sigh. haha..

thinking back... 2011 was fine. am blessed that all is well. maybe a little sadness. but am blessed to have memories..
2011, went to a few weddings. went to meli's solemnization. am blessed to be able to attend.. =] completed my advanced dip on early childhood with daphne at sp. gotta meet up w friends whom i havent meet up for a long while. still blessed to have such good friends by my side. 2011, might be a little sad. might have lost a few friends as well.. did not treat my family better.

so in this year, 2012, my few resolutions will be to work even harder in life. even though it might seem clueless. be less of a burden. treasure and treat my family n friends even more sincerely.. once again, 请多多指教 this 2012. to be a better person, better friend, better daughter n sister, better teacher. ^^

happy 2012! ^-^

signing out... 11.23pm

kimchi

2011-12-18T23:37:00.003+08:00

is 1 week since i shifted my furnitures n i am still loving it. think is the best furniture arrangement i ever ever did... =] plus plus. the very very cold wind in the night. yeah! is just simply perfect. but joc says i shld nt arrange my bed in the way it is now.. nt gd in terms of feng shui.. hmmm...

anyway, wat did i do today? i spent the day making kimchi! yup! i would have share it with my friends whom i did thought of. but... i dun think is well done. so. i will try to figure it n hopefully made some nice ones to share.. ^^

so many ppl had gone to korea this dec... sigh. i wanted to. the winter season! well... anyway, had plans for nxt yr june.. so.. will look forward too.. =)

christmas is coming. it will b a diff one this year. but well.. the world is spinning. things do change. but whatever is the change, as long as it is for the better. that's the most impt thing yeah? cant set up xmas tree this year. but is alright. cos there is a christmas tree outside. =] some family set up one that i suppose is pin onto the wall. blue lights shimmering the layout of a christmas tree n pink lights blinking inside the layout. free xmas tree which i will see look out of my windows before sleeping ^^

that is all for now.. gonna blog more before the.school reopens. somehow am missing the lil kids in my class. wonder hw much have they grown.. o(@^-^@)o

goodnight.

signing out... 11.56pm

new room (@^-^@)v

2011-12-14T00:04:00.003+08:00

today is the second day of my spring cleaning of my room. yup! i had also change the position of some of the furnitures.. like my bed, study desk.. n i am loving it! ^^ seriously. think i did a good job in planning the layout of my already v cluttered bedroom.. now am in the process of throwing things away n to reduce the amount of files etc. any ideas what can i throw or what shld i really keep? let me know! email or sms.. =]

so i am loving this new bedroom of mine. why? cos the bed is now facing the sky.. w the new tenants nw moving in to the new hdb condo design flats, their bright orange lights n crystal ceiling lights look like lil stars.. had always fantasize if my bedroom were to have a glass ceiling for me to look out to the dark sky. wouldnt it b great? ha! am moving too far off from the topic.

is time to sleep! although i had a bad day n lousy mood the whole afternoon. but it was an opportunity to spend some time clearing my room n stop thinking. =]

have a goodnight.

signing out... 0018 - wed

disappointment n back to kumon

2011-12-08T23:44:00.003+08:00

yesterday. i wanted to share whom was i disappointed with.. but didn't get a chance... maybe, it was just a small matter not worth mentioning not worth listening.
yeah. i suppose it is..

today. i went back to kumon to help out cos the chief instructor really needs a helper today as she is on leave. to know the importance i play in the center made me =] cos i have to help w the tasks tat the instructor usually does.. however, able to see the kids that i worked with before, able to help them, talk to the., accompany them. that was what the best thing that happen today. yup. am grateful n glad to b remembered by them n have the opportunity to see them. how much they have grown! ^-^

what is the best way to end the day...?

to be happy at work, not bringing work home or to think about work. to b grateful w such a splendid day.. (^-^)v

hope yours was too.. =]

goodnight...

signing out... 12.07am (fri)

Khalil Fong - Sing Along Song

2011-11-25T13:32:00.005+08:00

just happen to listen to this song again.. [Khalil Fong - Sing Along Song]

I wrote this song it's not too long
cos' I've been thinking 'about you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you

Well I don't know what you think 'bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

I wrote this song it's not too long
Cos' I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

In everyway you mean more to me than you'll ever know
girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words to sing so we could write our own romance

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

november

2011-11-01T07:22:00.003+08:00

is november once again..
one of my favourite month. ^^

signing out... 7.30am

2011-08-10T09:23:00.003+08:00

hello. how are you?

today is a holiday for me cos yesterday was National Day and all schools gets an off day the next day.

although i have tons of homework to do these two weeks but i will be going out to meet my friends later. am looking forward to it though. it might be the last meeting before peiying flies back for her semester.. and is been a long time since i see heyu and looking forward to see shu hui. so. i decided to throw all these homework to the back of my head and enjoy every moment later..

am working hard to my best extend. hope you are too.

signing out... 9.28am

today's weather and datelines..

2011-08-07T12:23:00.003+08:00

today's weather is wonderful. cool, windy and peaceful. a great day to not do any work. a great day to watch cardcaptor sakura.*dreaming*

currently having tons of assignment to do. hmm.. 2 - AIE, 2 - ms delphine, 1 - numeracy, 1 - ISP, 1 - AMS, 1 - ms jansy, 2 - IDL, 1 - practicum. total...? 2, 4,5,7,8, 11. to be completed by. 2 weeks time.... ^_^

however, the hugh and greatest project. one cannot be name. is due end of sept. it is the most impt project in my whole life. a project which equals to 100%. is all or nothing. the name for it shld be. dateline by sept. hmm. or maybe shld call it something else. i shall think abt it..

but whatever it is, i have to work hard...yeah. just work hard.

going for tuition now......

signing out... 12.30pm

2011-08-04T00:04:00.005+08:00

sad and useless..

this could have been avoided.

did not manage to protect the ones i love.

~tears are meant to be written~ (paulo coelho, twitter)

signing out... 12.07am

sick~

2011-07-19T22:03:00.001+08:00

is miserable to be sick. yup! am given 2 days mc. might be due to the stress level of all the assignments plus work etc.. fighting to get well soon so that i can work on my work more..

had been wanting to blog. but always felt a little too lazy to. or maybe a little too tired to.

will be back soon~ ^_^

signing out... 10.06pm

missing out

2011-06-07T22:16:00.001+08:00

just read some of my friends' blog... after a long while.

realised how much i had been missing out....

signing out... 10.17pm

2011-06-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

from lesson planning --> portfolio --> assignments and presentations. my life is nothing but work. not that is bad. but when thing goes out of control. that is bad.

recently felt that i have no time. no time for my family, no time for my friends, no time for my work, no time for myself...

frequently questioning myself izzit my poor time management.

the latest thought i have is to drop my tuition just to stay home and give more time to my mum.

choices. in life we have to make.

regret. my ultimate fear.

fear limits and restrain me from making choices..

however, even with all these thoughts (i might be thinking too much), but i can only say sorry and that i will try harder.

signing out... 10.07pm

2011-05-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

no mood for work

totally no mood.

my soul is being totally drained out...

signing out... 10.43pm

2011-04-18T00:47:00.002+08:00

thought of this friend when i heard this song "bleeding love" while on the way back..

seldom listen to english song.

first heard it years back when my friend intro.. =)

signing out... 12.49am

2011-04-16T22:51:00.006+08:00

tonight's weather left a peaceful feeling while i was walking home... it feels really great when the breeze blew gently on my face. but yet a part of me felt so sorry that i could not explain.

next week is the beginning of my second part of my one year course. after the course. all will be over. is a now or never to do well for it. will i be able to handle the stress and everything around me. my job, tuition, part time and all those whom i care for. will i have the energy for myself. will i have the courage to walk through.

i dunno. maybe i could. cos i will try...

goodnight world.

signing out... 10.55pm

how are you?

2011-04-15T22:57:00.004+08:00

hello how are you?

today i am very happy. was invited for a dinner by another center because i went to help them with some stuffs for an important exam that the center has to undertake.. took a short walk around a mall and got back home where there is my mother and brother. everyone is back early.. went into a room which is half tidied. now listening to music and blogging.

going to turn in soon. in preparation for tml's work. hope you are doing well. takecare.

signing out... 11.01pm

of things in school.....

2011-04-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

once again, today is a cooling night. counting down to school re-open. hope i can manage my time well this time and do well... but whatever it is, now is the time to relax. so i decided to blog some interesting things that happened in school.... while listening to my mp3...

recently there's this nonstop discussion of opening the window 5 mins later at our center. it had been the top discussion ever since the beginning of march. it has yet to stop.. even till today. after the parents realized that the higher management can't be tackled. they decided to find me. as a teacher i should................. sigh. parents can be so interesting at times.. but well. i am gonna try hard to resolve in my own way...

another interesting thing happened today. a child who came from a broken family and has a grandmother whom we suspect is not mentally stable cos of old age brought an interesting snack today. as snack is not provided, children are often encouraged to bring healthy snacks like sandwiches etc. after 4 months into the new k1 term. the child surprised me with..................... guess what. a packet of instant noodles and an egg. (my bro dun even put an egg in his noodles or request for me to help him cook...) the child came rather innocently... "teacher ling xuan... *hand stretch out to pass me her snack box. help me cook noodles." =.= faint......... or more like stunned............

kids can be really cute. =) =) =) a chinese boy who often says 我不要你啦！or whenever a teacher teaches him table manners/to request something politely: "teacher, may i have a bread please." he will repeat after the teacher, "teacher.... may i...... have..... 我不要吃啦!" and walk away... haha.... although frustrating... but, he always has cute stunts like jumping and hugging. climbing up the lap. he especially love to play with my snack box. the most recent thing was, knowing i had no time to eat during break. he brought out my snack box during lunch, took out the fork and spoon and display it nicely on my table.. =p

the many little happy things that kids do.... *smile.. =D

signing out... 11.23pm

a great night

2011-04-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

had a great day today. but not a great mood.

however, whatever it is.

is great to be able to have a good rest.

a good chance to spend my night at home. having korean noodles, watching some show and listening to the radio while clearing my wardrobe..

to end the day. am gonna drink a glass of milk and read a book.

wishing every night to be like tonight.

signing out... 11.05pm

remember to be happy

2011-03-31T21:48:00.002+08:00

it is school holiday for poly students. likewise for us. however, i am using this time to try to do as much for my work as possible. typing out student's portfolio. preparing teaching aids.. trying to do my best for my students.. but somehow, i am still unable to grasp the proper and right method to teach all. so that everyone can benefit. however, i am looking forward to it. =)

today is a very hot day. a very very hot day. as i walk to my student's house for tuition, i can't help but felt irritated with the heat.. however, come to think of it. without the irritating heat, i might not had appreciate the cool weather after tuition. once i stepped out of their house. a very cool breeze blew onto my face. it reminded me about the time i was in NZ. reminded me about being happy. and most importantly, i felt happy. the thoughts that had been running through. was suppressed for that moment. whatever changes that had happened. i will forget. if i do have a chance to travel again. my next trip will be a happier one =)

recently, i had been dreaming of rainbows too. however, the most recent rainbow was a fake one. hmm. how should i describe it. the feeling of seeing the rainbow was super excited and happy. but then to realise it was just a picture. not something which i thought i was real or that it was right infront of me...

what a weird dream. ha.

that's all for now.

goodnight. may everyday be a happy one for all~ ^_^

signing out... 9.58pm

sick

2011-03-22T23:01:00.005+08:00

sick.

all over.

since i came back..

signing out.... 11.02pm

good news everywhere

2011-03-19T08:11:00.002+08:00

preparing to go out soon..

izzit excitement or what? could not slept until 4am. but yet did not felt that i slept a single wink when i woke up at 7am just now. *shake head. this is no good.. tsk tsk..

anyway, just an update of this week before i head off.

received a letter and photo from a friend whom grace, jean and i visited recently. it was a surprise as well as something for me to think of. once again, the feeling of having to appreciate every moment sets into me.

received another mail. a wedding invitation from one of my 师姐. only 2 years older than me. gonna receive quite a few this year i suppose... it might seems like i have to wrap a couple of red packets. but to me, is a form of blessing and i am happy to be part of it. wedding is always the most blissful thing..

lastly, a happy news from my good friend, sw. yeah! he has finally found someone whom he is sure he will be able to commit after all these years of waiting. the wait is definitely worthwhile. =) i am sure he will do really well and great, treating her the best he could. jia you orhz! congrats... ^_^

that's all. wishing everyone a happy weekend.

signing out... 8.16am

2011-03-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

almost done with the packing of my bag. =)

it shall be a great day later.

signing out... 1.12am

water rationing

2011-03-16T21:17:00.003+08:00

just got home from work. is a long day. completed several errands. but not done with my center's work. have to continue them on friday..

today, my estate had a change of water meter. but after changing, there aint any water flowing out from my house tap. yup! went over to my neighbour's house to realise that there might be something wrong during the change of meter. they had the problem as well. but lucky for them, they realised immediately and had it fix. however, there was no one at home in the morning and i am the first person home today. thus, my family have to practice some water rationing today.. =x

lucky for us, our neighbour provided me with a pail of water which i have to use carefully without wasting a single drop of water while i shower...

come to realise how lucky we are to have never ending flow of water as and when we need it. how lucky to have electricity as well... as compared to those who doesn't.. e.g., the people in Japan have to live with intermittent flow of electricity and have to grab as much food and water for survival.

thus, i am enjoying and appreciating the dinner that i bought while typing my blog. =)

gonna work hard again tomorrow.

sleep early~ ^_^

signing out... 9.30pm

a busy but meaningful tuesday...

2011-03-16T00:46:00.004+08:00

today is once again a busy day.

went back to the center to do work and to show the supervisor the worksheets that i worked on last night. went home to meet my mum for lunch then accompany her out for shopping before rushing back for tuition.

feeling totally drained. so am gonna sleep early since tml gonna be one busy day again. =)

some self reflection before logging out..

everyday i appreciate the things around me more and more.
even during tired times. i still try my best.
even if i am sad. i stop crying and forget about it after a short while.

there is something waiting for me. i dunno what. but i know there will be. someday. somehow.
everything happens for a reason....

nite nite~

signing out... 1.50am

work and more work

2011-03-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

still up at this hour.

trying to rush the worksheets that i said i will help my supervisor with.

a little silly of me.

but seeing her so stressed with so many other things made me feel i should help her. so that she can be happier. in another way. i am also learning something new.

however, i am feeling so so sleepy after a 12 hours work. why am i working so hard for? *shrugs

mummy is angry with me this morning. i know she felt neglected with my brother busy studying while i am busy working.

what to do.

i will just try to split myself into many many parts.. not like lord voldemot....

hmm. gonna work a little more and back to sleep..

*praying for those in japan.. =/

signing out... 1.43am

final assignment

2011-03-12T01:31:00.001+08:00

finally.

is time to sleep.

totally forgotten about the poem assignment that i have to complete by saturday. luckily daphne smsed me! *phew.

i need a break.

a good break.

a short trip.

looking forward... =)

signing out... 2.55am

IT fair and others..

2011-03-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

ah...

there's so much things waiting for me to do.

can't wait for the school holiday. but yet hope the holiday wun end so fast! =p

really felt like going bowling, skating and kite flying. am looking forward to the short trip..

IT fair is here again!

since the last time which was 3 years back? i havent been to the IT fair again...

this time, i hope i can get my own camera cos i really need it for my work. and of course. if i do get to go overseas, it will come in handy...

on the lookout for nice headphones / earphones too.. seriously love them even though is just admire. hehehe..

time to continue with my poem assignments. zzz...

wishing me and daphne luck for tml's test!!

signing out... 10.15pm

glow in the dark

2011-03-06T20:13:00.001+08:00

just watched an mv

and

realised that

glow in the dark is still my best friend.

signing out... 8.14pm

flying kite..

2011-03-06T18:59:00.001+08:00

feel like flying kite...

signing out... 5.45pm

blank

2011-02-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

troubled.

confused.

for what reason.

i dunno.

no drive.

no motivation.

izzit better to have assignments? think i am crazy to think of that....

zzzzz....

what am i working so hard for?

i shall slack the last bit of sunday.

next two week is intensive lesson once again. with 3 assignments due in two weeks...

signing out... 10.14pm

friday

2011-02-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

anticipating the arrival of friday... =)

signing out... 12.34am

yeah! 3 assignments down.

2011-02-18T22:16:00.003+08:00

yeah! i am counting down to the completion of my assignments... ^^

submitted three today whereby 2 was group presentation.

although a little disappointed with one of the group presentation. however, i am still a happy girl today. cos there's this feeling that is building in me. a feeling that i can do better. will do well and alright if i have more confidence. maybe i still wun have that confidence. but the feeling of self-realization motivated me...

so............

for tonight. i shall sleep early and be prepared for the next day. hopefully i can do better for next week..

goodnight all~ ^_^ be happy...

signing out...10.19pm

sleep - 3.19am

2011-02-18T03:19:00.001+08:00

i want to sleep~

signing out... 3.19am

assignment..

2011-02-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

i am working hard on my 3 assignments for tml.

there's this little little feeling that i will be alright =)

signing out... 10.26pm

memories

2011-02-15T23:46:00.003+08:00

just came back from a cny cc dinner that all members have to attend..

the only night that i can take a break and continue working hard again tml...

children are forever so adorable. no matter how notti they are.. they are just simply adorable. of course there are a few that i still miss alot. but i am gradually liking all of them.. and maybe loving all of them.. ^^

tonight, i spent my night looking back at some photos taken 3 years back... the memories and photos during the airshow as well as the bangkok trip. and the conversations during that year.. i seriously miss the trip to thailand.. i miss watch too..... =(

will i get to travel again with my friends?

hmm.. i will only indulge in the wonderful memories for now. when i wake up tml. i shall not think anymore...

signing out... 11.50pm

tired..

2011-02-15T01:26:00.001+08:00

so tired~

eight more to go...

signing out... 1.26am

happy v-day to friends and assignments ^_^

2011-02-14T18:40:00.003+08:00

this is the start of a 2 week busy busy week.

with i dunno.. 9 assignments to hand up?

one just pass today.
one tml.
3 on friday.
2 next thursday.
2 next friday..

yeah. have to jiayou le.......

anyway, happy v-day to all my friends... =) hope everyone will be happy with their love ones.. i will love you all lots too... keke..

i think. i feel. there's something different.

signing out... 6.40pm

time check 7.49am

2011-02-13T07:49:00.002+08:00

good morning.

time check 7.49am.

i think i've listen to my playlist at least over 50 times. somehow. i dunno whether i am tired. i think i am. but i ain't sleeping. so did a little of my assignment. i suppose is one third done. i have to be as awake as last night later. i hope.

whatever it is.

is goodnight now...

signing out... 7.51am

4.15am

2011-02-13T04:15:00.002+08:00

time check: 4.15am.

today's activity. tuition. assignments (consolidate everyone's part and write essay for monday's assignment, start tue assignment). lastly, stay awake as much as possible.

oh. and prepare this week's activities in school.

=)

signing out... 4.16am

a day that ended off well / dbi0213 gathering

2011-02-13T00:25:00.004+08:00

yesterday ended off good afterall..

in the morning i went for an excursion with my previous center. I get to see all the K2 children that i missed. as well as one that look similiarly like tien chyi. the difference is this one is more mischievous.. keke.. but no matter what, the excursion to the fire station had been good. I am very happy to be able to go with the children.. ^_^

went to see the kumon children after that... as usual. kumon is a place i will never feel unfamiliar with anymore.. =)

at night, had a gathering with DBI0213. I was never really in their class. at first the thought that I will be feeling awkward especially ben ain't gonna be there. but thank goodness. it turns out all right. had meli sitting beside me just made me felt better... ^_^

is a happy happy day afterall... =)

on a side note. there are many things running inside my brain at the moment. however, i hope i dun have to talk about it cos of some reason. however, putting that aside, i will try to be happier. how. i suppose i will know it someday.

is time to try stay awake now.. =)

goodnight to all..

listening to derrick ho - 当我知道你们相爱. somehow, without the lyrics, the tune already caught my attention...

signing out... 12.34am

cny break

2011-02-07T00:17:00.001+08:00

cny break is over..

is time to work tml and to go for classes..

but i have not recovered... =(

however, i enjoyed this break alot... ^^

signing out... 12.18am

further apart

2011-01-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

i guess.

i think.

we were once close.

but now.

however now.

we are getting further and further apart.

signing out... 11.11pm

mind, heart

2011-01-27T23:38:00.001+08:00

the mind. confused

the heart. tired

the ears. hears nothing

no music in the heart

forcing music in the mind

signing out... 11.40pm

work + sick

2011-01-24T23:50:00.002+08:00

hihi..

these few weeks had been hectic... totally. is nothing but work work work. and maybe sick sick sick..

now i am feeling the flu coming into me. not to mention headache...

last week was a rather disappointed week. mainly school work.

is time to start reflecting about myself.

get my topsy turvy world to be no longer topsy turvy.

am looking forward to a break.

till then... i need strength to hang on...

signing out... 11.54pm

bus incident

2011-01-09T20:26:00.002+08:00

today is an interesting day..

on the way to one of my tuition child's house. an argument between the bus driver and a passenger happened.

personally, there was no one person who was right or wrong. but somehow, the passenger had to make the whole situation awkward. the bus. stopped a distance away from the curb whereby there was a puddle of water between the curb and the bus. the passenger. who had problem trying to get up the bus which was parked some distance away from the curb was seriously angry when the single deck bus stopped at a traffic light and he fell. he had difficulty in movement whereby his leg was not strong enough to pull him up the stairs and he walked rather slowly. firstly, the passenger had to choose to sit at the top seat when there were other seats that were more accessible. then he refused to accept the help of the driver when he fell and instead he kept scolding the driver. hmm. the guy was a little heavy cos even with two guys and myself who were near him could not hold him up when the bus stopped a little abruptly.

anyway, the whole situation was awkward. the bus driver was poor thing - even requested for witness to help him if the situation gets out of hand. on the other hand, the passenger, although he was also poor thing to have fell and had difficulty in movement. but i believe there are always solutions that both the driver and passenger could help in resolving the situation. to not make things worst...

something i learnt. be kind. try not to make things difficult for everyone. is not easy to be a bus driver either.

signing out... 9.07pm

first day of new semester - 2011

2011-01-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

first day of the new semester in school for year 2011..

not just the sickness that caused me the sickly feeling. but the feeling of not seeing familiar faces in school - teachers, children, made me sick and refuse to get up for work.

even till today. the in-charge still said i look sick. zzz.....

but anyway, first day. some exaggerating parents.

however, is the unfamiliar faces that made me =(

today is also tien chyi's first day in primary school. hope he is doing well. =)

signing out... 10.33pm

third day

2011-01-03T11:06:00.003+08:00

third day of the new year..

and i am finally feeling a little better.. but still not as ready for tml new semester not for this new year.

but will try hard.

looking forward to the drama - dream high which would be aired today. first episode ^_^

think it will be a very inspiring one for me. and is pack with idols.. keke.. wooyoung zzang!

Tears are words waiting to be spoken (paulocoelho)

signing out... 11.09am

happy new year 2011!

2011-01-01T11:39:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year 2011!

is a new year and the time now is 11.39am, saturday.

was 2010 a good year for everyone? =) how was the last day of the year spent?

well, me spent mine feeling sick and lying on the bed sleeping and occassionally woken up by the cheers of people in my neighbourhood. keke..

2010 ain't a good year for me. falling sick really frequently and for a long duration. just like now. maybe with the new job, i started to have throat problems which i pray would not result into something serious~

am suppose to state some new year resolutions a week ago. but once again. too busy and moodless to. just like what shu hui says. is not easy to be an educator...

just a brief new year resolution:

1. hope everyone, myself, my family, my friends, would be healthy, happy and stress free.

2. do not have to work for money or worry for money

3. able to fly off to some country for 2 weeks

4. live meaningfully

5. lesser nagging from my mum =p (cos my mum is nagging now. haha)

stop here for now.

breakfast time~

happy new year to all my friends! takecare..

signing out... 11.46am

sick again..

2010-12-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

why why why.

why am i sick again...

omg.

i have enuff of being sick.

omg.

please dun let me fall sick again...

signing out... 11.33pm

a night of weird thots

2010-12-28T01:52:00.003+08:00

i dunno why...

but i just can't seem to fall asleep tonight..

met grace and some of my sec sch frenz for a quick dinner.

just a sudden thought.

i think i dun treat my friends well. seriously dun.

maybe i should just vanish into thin air.

maybe i should really just pack up everything and leave, run away and be emotionless..

signing out... 1.55am

christmas..

2010-12-25T13:05:00.003+08:00

merry christmas to all.. =)

it is once again christmas... my favourite festival for the year! ^^

met up with a couple of friends. last minute arrangements. had fun even though it was just a dinner.. i should pamper myself more~ ^_^

christmas also meant that new year is coming.. which also meant new resolutions for the next year. when i finish tidy my room.. i will do that. haha haha haha... who knows when.. =p

anyway, wishing everyone a merry christmas.

and wishing myself.. get well soon ^_=

signing out... 1.08pm

what holiday is this~

2010-12-22T18:22:00.003+08:00

arghz..

seriously. seriously.

what holiday is this.

first i only get a full one week holiday. only.

next i fell sick.

now. still feeling sick. am notified my practicum posting.

i am second on the mail list. but i am first to be "slaughtered". okay. first to be observed.... even the second observation date i am first to be observed. i am totally. totally clueless what am i suppose to do.

not to mention, i have to bond with the new students now that i am being posted somewhere else..

sobx.. hope that the first one would be marked more leniently...

signing out...6.24pm

sick~

2010-12-20T08:37:00.002+08:00

sigh..

i am sick just right before the christmas...

this is the dunno how many times i am having sore throat this year... =( ulcer is another thing that kept frequently appearing this year.......

maybe the constant 2 weeks headache was just a sign...

but whatever, am still gonna enjoy~

off to work~

merry christmas ^^

signing out... 8.20am

clearing of room day 2

2010-12-18T02:24:00.003+08:00

the time now is 2.30am. the wind is blowing strongly into my room. making the whole room cold. =) like it lots! ^_^

why ain't i asleep?

well.. cos i was a pig pig in the noon. =p

halfway through lunch, i felt a little sleepy... thus, after my show - actresses' butler, i went to take a nap. think it rained halfway through... which made the weather even better to sleep.. *tsk tsk.. shake head.. so i actually slept all the way till dinner time. =p *guilty.

thus. i am now awake and had just stopped tidying my room.

status: 75% ^^

but when my brother came back, i asked him. how izzit? =) =D

he said: no difference...

*faint faint faint...

he said i have too many deco stuffs.....

think i really have to go to the extreme measures.... to tidy my room....

burn my room? xp

throw everything away? except my toys?

abandon my room?

arghz.. but everything i also want.... there's memories in each of them~

i shall think think again..

^_^

signing out... 2.40am

late

2010-12-17T13:45:00.002+08:00

what happen when you woke up late?

everything else is late... zzzz

signing out... 1.50pm

precious one week holiday

2010-12-15T10:41:00.002+08:00

today is the third day of my precious one week holiday..

holiday = no study. no work.

it was supposed to be at least 2 weeks. or maybe even 3 weeks. am so down on luck~ *sulk =(

but anyway, spent my first day at kumon. yah yah. sounds crazy? but over there is not work. is fun with the kids. trying to make them to do. reasoning with their all sorts of excuses and in the end winning over them.. wahahhaa.... okay. really crazy. but i had fun =D

yesterday? scheduled to clear the room. but. spend most of my time watching shows and sleeping to recover that horrible day of working my assignment till 7am in the morning and going for an 8am class on a saturday............................. =.= come to think of it. 5 assignments in 2 weeks. 2 assignments completed in 4 hours individually. it was total maddness. that's why i needed the sleep. yeah yeah yeah? haha..
anyway, room = 1% cleared! ^_^

today. hmm.. getting ready gifts for christmas.. tidy room. and celeste's birthday =)

someone seriously should plug out the internet cable! argh..

alright. shall stop here... time to start work~ gee.. will i ever finish~ haha..

signing out... 11.00am

november ---> december

2010-12-06T22:11:00.002+08:00

november had been a great month with all the friends who celebrated with me. i know who you are. you know who you are. will keep it in my heart always. thank you~ ^_^

december. it is the month for christmas. christmas = present exchange. i love christmas. but no money to buy nice one. keke.. but anyway... =p

lately had been really stressed up with assignments. four to hand in. is stressful cos i was a little last minute. completed 2 assignments within 4-5hours. yeah. that was how last minute i was... my bad. thus, my mood is a little cranky lately. not a little. but lots. sorry to friends who experience this mood of mine. think it gonna last awhile....

i had also been really confuse with my life as of late. is so confusing to me that i really dunno where to began. all i know is, "the question of what i want in my life?" kept popping up.. yeah. i am no longer young.. maybe i am feeling that invisible stress to have a sense of direction. which i am currently, no sure myself..

shall sleep early tonight. at least i know. able to sleep early is something that made me happy =)

signing out... 10.42pm

that moment

2010-11-28T03:39:00.001+08:00

happiness is just that very moment.

assignments are forever.

signing out... 3.40am

the day before 18th Nov

2010-11-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

a few more minutes to thursday.

this year, i ain't really in a mood to celebrate my birthday. izzit cos i am getting older or izzit i have tons of outstanding work to do? center's / job outstanding work. last minute presentation to do. graduation gifts to prepare. tuition timing to finalized. assignments deadline that's coming... sigh..

whichever way it is, i am thankful to melissa for meeting up yesterday as well as cs for going out today to de-stress.. =)

thank you. tml will be a better day. i hope~ =)

signing out... 11.58pm

what life meant now~

2010-11-14T19:30:00.007+08:00

my life.

is filled with confusion.

guilt.

helplessness.

but yet with hope.

signing out... 7.32pm

good and bad day

2010-11-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

today is a super lousy day.

I had been working on the kids' portfolio almost every week. I can say I am really consistent in getting my work done. Recently, I had gone into full force since last wed to get the portfolio ready. But till today, it is still not done. I wonder why..

I had spent last afternoon staying in school till evening just to finish one level - Nursery as well as to stay up late till 1 am to finish typing K1s outstanding. Today, I embarked on the journey to complete the K2s, which just so happen that I have to get ready by today.

Stayed all the way till 3pm (I had lessons at 3pm) but still left with a little to do which I brought home... cos I am totally burnt out. before leaving my workplace, I was asked by someone who knows my schedule really well: "why? today no need go for class anymore?"

Forget it~

When i reached school, I supposed I was about 35mins late~ was in a unconscious state whereby after explaining my reason for being late, the lecturer said, your attendance will not be counted today. yeah. a simple sentence and I had to repeat what the lecturer said just to be sure I heard it correctly. Great~ I wish I could just go home and rest instead..........

But anyway, I pull through the whole lesson. trying not to feel anything.

what made my day in the end was, the bus driver who waited for me while I hurried to the bus which is moving off. was too tired to even wait for the next bus. so the driver made my day a little better..

signing out... 11.17pm

2010-11-07T20:01:00.002+08:00

爱情虽然是件美好的事。但也是件辛酸和悲痛的事。

不管是谁。都是一样。

真的希望大家能够高兴。能够知道该去的方向。

和幸福。

signing out... 8.13pm

happy happy day

2010-11-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

today is a wonderful day! ^^

went to work at kumon this morning. time never fail to fly everytime i am at kumon. i tend to lose my sense of logic whenever i am there. maybe i am just enjoying myself too much when working there.. =) sorry.. =/

the next thing that i am happy about is whenever i am able to resolve issues. =) today, i suppose i was able to resolve a few.. am glad. =>

the last thing that made me happy is, tonight happens to be a rainy and cooling day. while walking back, i can feel the cool air. even right now in my living room, the wind is blowing in really strongly. this indicates that, it is the end of the year, november is here, singapore "winter" is here!!!! ^^

this means that:
1. i will be hibernating quite a bit as my room will be the coldest among all rooms. and i just simply love tugging under my comforter.
2. i can take the chance to wear my jackets! (my favourite!!)
3. my birthday is here. (although i dun really look forward to it much this year. maybe not next year either...)
4. my favourite festive season is around the corner!! X'mas is coming!! (hope i am able to give more this year...)
5. although i am looking forward to my school holidays at work. but i know it ain't coming that soon. and definitely not as much day off as i would hope to. however, i will still look forward to it positively this year [first thing is to learn roller blade], as well as look forward to it next year [thinking about the thailand trip 2 years back~ thinking]

whatever it is, tonight, i am definitely a happy gal! (^.^)v

i will sleep well tonight.. =) till then~

signing out... 11.59pm

cold heart

2010-11-02T23:13:00.001+08:00

my heart suddenly felt cold.

signing out... 11.14pm

EK K2 grad

2010-10-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

today i am a superbly happy "child".

i managed to attend the graduation ceremony of the previous kindergarten i worked in. yeah. with the help of a teacher and my supervisor. i am really blessed.

being able to see the children at EK, i am extremely happy. EXTREMELY. they never fail to give me energy to smile.

I shall remember today. Forever remembering the children. Especially my K2s whom I had taught since they were K1...

=D ^^ =) =]

signing out... 12 midnight

hurt.

2010-09-29T20:27:00.004+08:00

after blogging how happy i was, i suddenly fell from heaven.

today i had to teach my form class. since monday i had a child going around telling his classmates not to like me. a child who is extremely obedient who turned his back on me when i talk to him but not to other teachers. a girl who refuses to say sorry when she is wrong but yet want others to say sorry when they are wrong. covering her ears and furiously shaking her head when i tried to talk sense and explain.

today is no better. the boy that the principal said i had quite an influence whereby she saw some changes in the boy... today said he dun like me. wants my mentor back. the boy who goes around telling his classmates not to like me started to be disrespectful to me. the obedient child and the girl is still the same. what's new is. the boy that i spend alot of effort on due to his lack of family support refused to do his work. was so angry with me that he use vulgarities on me. but cried when he saw me cried. when i said not to do his work anymore and just go play. he refuses and kept tagging me.

he really hurts me so much. i could not explain the feeling in me.

maybe i should have chose to be unethical and went to teach my woodlands children instead.

or maybe i was just not as suitable as what i thought.

signing out... 8.55pm

missing mood...

2010-09-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

after almost 2 months of working, i am finally settling down. although i still cannot see the hearts of people. however, as long as my heart is pure and with the children. i am happy. just like how i was this morning. =)

had a meeting with the principal today cos i have to sort of pass on / "hand over" some duties to the relief teacher who will come in when i started my course - 4th oct. she was suppose to follow me around on monday - what the principal said. however, as she has another full time job so i have to brief the principal on her duties... honoured in some way cos i am only a newbie with less than 2 months experience. worried cos the new teacher has some sort of experience. sad cos i wun be seeing my children. especially now that i know a few more of them.... i am so going to work hard. hopefully!

feeling sad in the evening cos i miss my children in woodlands so much~ so so so much.... i have the chance to teach them once more. but i couldn't. omg. i am missing them so much that i have to drown myself with music to make myself feel better. my earphone is serving me well~ ^_^

gotta continue typing the report list for all my 3 classes... i am enjoying it. but feeling lazy... *bleah..

in the missing mood.. my children. my friends. everyone.

signing out... 11.14pm *blue*

2010-09-20T21:06:00.002+08:00

life hasn't been that good.

i suppose i was the one that i making it bad.

there's so much things that is piling inside me. but i just can't bring myself to say anything. not that i dun want to. but what i am typing now is the best i can express myself.

i'm missing lots of things. but i am not ready for any...

signing out... 9.15pm

September holiday

2010-09-12T21:59:00.002+08:00

last week was a long week for everyone... P.H on a friday. ^_^

for me, it was the September school holiday for the kids. as a kindergarten teacher, i also had holiday. suppose to be.

however, i went back to school for meeting from morning till evening.. from mon - wed. and back on thu to set up the learning corner for my class.. yeah! what holiday is that!! mon - thu: school. friday. holiday for all. the only holiday during my Sept holiday!! arghz!!!

anyway, it's okay. i am learning to enjoy my things. and being happier.

missing the time i spend at changi airport and expo with my friends. maybe one day if i am really crazy. i might just go there alone to slack~ ^_^

happy working this week~

signing out... 10.00pm

first teacher's day with new students~

2010-09-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was teacher's day while two days ago the children celebrated teacher's day..

received lots of love from the children. showered with cards, flowers, chocs and red pens. even today i still received flowers from some nursery students.. =) am thankful for the love they had. even though it was just a short duration of one month being with them... not to mention, i had been really fierce to them most of the times =p

work hasn't been really bad. maybe the bad part of it was i could not be myself due to the tense situation / unseen politics around.. however, with some of the children, i am slowly trying to adapt. although i have other thoughts..

till then, takecare everyone. gonna update again.. =)

goodnight~

signing out... 11.00pm

a child like tien chyi

2010-08-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

today i saw a student that looks so much like like tien chyi..

is like the younger version of tien chyi or when tien chyi was in K1..

i miss my children lots...

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in this new job, i am adapting okay. i do my best regardless of what others might think. the thing that made me happy is that i get to go home early. have dinner or maybe dinner then rush for tuition, or after dinner, just relax and watch my tv shows... yeah. that's what made me happy....

going home early... have a more routine life.

however, i hope this job is just temporary...

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i miss my children again~

signing out... 10.45pm

third week at work. i miss my EK children lots..

2010-08-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

Work had started to get busy...

I am now all alone without the mentor that i was tagging along. though I had other mentors too.. But I still have to try figure as much and not be reliant....

Spent 4 hours marking their books, preparing for next lesson and many other stuffs that I had yet to do.. especially commenting portfolio... I shall try not to procrastinate too much, work faster and smarter so as to get everything done this week.... cos next week is another brand new theme to do / decorate the class.

Yesterday someone from the HQ came down to look at our centre's performance which included mine. one of the 3 english teacher. was my 2nd day all alone. luckily, i think i did well. cos the lady said to the principal I was alert towards the children understanding of the lesson. *phew..

Although I am starting to like one or two of the children.

However.

I miss the rest of my children at EK (my prev kindergarten).

Tml shall be my third week without them...

They might have already forgotten me. But i still remembers them..

Missing them lots~

Signing out... 11.39pm

2010-08-15T09:19:00.002+08:00

today. is the day that Ai Ni will be flying off for her studies. We couldn't see her off cos is real early in the morning at 6 a.m.

this morning, i woke up and i suddenly felt a pang of sadness...

time passed so fast. 3 years ago, Ai Ni was just my tutor till lecturer and supervisor as well as my friend.. a friend that helped me through my studies and unknowingly light up the inferiority that i can do well in my studies too...

will miss the time when she was just a tutor, the time that was the most happiest (i suppose).. till the guidance she gave and the time we went for the conference.

*gratefulness*

hope Ai Ni takecare over there and keep in contact.. missing Ai Ni... *sobx*

signing out... 9.35am

story / 2nd week at work

2010-08-11T20:21:00.007+08:00

story:

she thought that she would try her best to be positive. because complaining sounds so weak. she decided not to be weak and even if there's complain she will just swallow it. but she is just so .....

she thought that everything would be okay. however, she was proven wrong. she went home one day and the first thing she did was cry. hiding in her room crying and then walking out with nothing left in her mind.

she had been dreaming since she was born. and she continued to be dreaming.. she still holds a dream that seems so far away. like the sand in the hour glass that is slipping away which will be empty one day.

solution. stand on the spot and wait.

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today's work. what should i say...

everything seems okay.

yeah it was okay.

the hype at work. is how to celebrate the upcoming teacher's day celebration. the usual routine was, to have a good meal at some restaurant. but this year, they decided to go for a short getaway! ^^ although they are required to contribute to part of the trip.. but they had been trying to reduce the amount of contribution as much as possible.. and i think they did.. a bit. =)

yup. the principal asked me to go back and consider.. the teachers started asking me whether i will be going. especially the cleaner aunty. she is super excited when i said the principal did asked me to consider - which she takes it i will be able to go.. =) so teachers were discussing much last week however, i wasn't included, more like i didn't include myself cos the principal said she will check with me if i can go.... (sponsored) then come friday... everyone was photocopying their passport but i didn't bring mine though i heard them saying. then the principal suddenly asked for mine when no one told me....

but it's alright. principal was kind. asked me to bring on my next working day.. however, i forgotten =p

but it's okay. cos principal said she was sorry that she do not know whether i can go. as the head said i can't and that she will ask and sms me again..

so i am okay. next came the teacher organiser dealing with the planning. she came over and said "darling, would you like to come for the trip. however, u will have to pay the full amount cos you are not sponsored" my answer. oh. how much will it be. " hmm.. it depends. should range around 500 - 600+" my answer, i see.. could i consider and let you know again.

that ends it.

the principal did not come back to me. think she dun have to either. since it was less than 2 hours when teacher organiser come find me.

cleaner aunty said "forget it. not worth going"

my thought. *blank* but i wun be going.

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another interesting thing today.

today i did a relief for a chinese teacher. a solid 4 hour teaching with the nursery student. i would say i did well.. at least i wasn't shivering or a slightest bit of nervous teaching. =) *kudos to myself*

the past 2 days. my throat hurts real lot. to a point i actually lost my voice.

so after today's teaching. i went straight to the doctor cos i can barely hear my voice. not to mention i was turning feverish. doctor says: " 2 days mc. no talking." (same as the prev trip to the doctor).

am still considering whether to take mc for tml. cos i dun think i will get paid if i take mc. *clause ain't clear* and! i dunno whether i can claim my medical fees.. =(

cancelled tuition today hoping for miracle to happen tml.. =)

okay. that's all for now.

interesting day it had been..

i miss my children. they are my motivators..

signing out... 8.48pm

missing my children~

2010-08-11T07:14:00.001+08:00

today is my second week at my new job. which also means is my second week that i dun see my children... i miss them so much... especially tien chyi....

hope today i will feel better and work is a pleasure~

signing out... 7.17am

happy national day

2010-08-09T23:38:00.004+08:00

today is national day. also a holiday for every singaporean =)

is a good day except for i was sick the whole day..

met up with jocelyn in the morning to buy some of her stuffs. in the end, i bought more... then after, met up with grace to have lunch.. she was so kind and nice that she treated me lunch. i should treat her back some time when i am much more financially stable =) thank you grace! it was nice to catch up with ya..

lastly, happy national day...

hope i get well by tml.. else wed... i really dunno how should i teach~

nearly forgot... please let me get well tml... so that i dun have to spend money to see a doctor~~~ ^_^

goodnight...

signing out 11.42pm

sick. again...

2010-08-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

i am sick again~

this is the second time that i felt i might just lose my voice soon.. the last time was less than a month ago...

it felt good to have a great rest then..

but now that i have start work, i can't really afford to fall sick..

hope my throat heal before tuesday night~~

signing out... 10.34pm

problem. 3rd day...

2010-08-04T23:09:00.001+08:00

i am trying really hard to adapt.

had never tried so hard for this line. it was never much of a problem.

but this time it is.

what exactly is the problem?

my internal problem. or the exterior ones......

signing out... 11.11pm

today's weather made me feel good

2010-08-01T10:51:00.003+08:00

since friday night. i had been feeling awful..

even during yesterday's kumon and tuition, i also did not have the mood to reprimand children for being noisy and not concentrating..

luckily this morning i felt better.. feeling the morning cool breeze made me felt better. felt cheerful..

so i started to keep my stuffs, my kumon worksheets, my bags which i dunno where can i put it, and. my notes left over from the previous kindergarten. in the end, i started stoning, looking at the children's name, thinking about how i had to rack my brain to pair them up to do their computer work.

is weird. but i still miss them lots.

maybe it will take about another month or so...

tml i will be starting work at a new centre. this time as a teacher. not a computer instructor. thank the teachers from my previous kindergarten for being so kind and helpful when it comes to handling the children. hope i can bring this knowledge to the new kindergarten that i am going to. so far, not very positive towards it. but i am sure i will be fine..

to friends who are starting a new life and path like me from tml onwards, good luck~ let's work hard together. jiayou. hwaiting..

signing out... 11.19am

missing them - EK children

2010-07-29T11:44:00.004+08:00

yesterday was my last day of work at EK.

i had to tell the children that a new teacher call sharon will be coming over to teach them. heard from one of the teacher, the children went back crying saying teacher ling (the name they called) will not be coming anymore....

i miss them so so much. i hope they do as well..

i miss the children that i taught since they were k1.. especially the one i am closest with.... tien chyi. that is his chinese name..

if i ever do have a chance. i will ask the mum whether he can be my god son. though my mum says that sounds weird. meaning i had a child when i was 18 years old.... cos he is 19 years younger than me.. =p

but well.. somehow, there's this bond that i do not know how to explain. a feeling that i can take care of him like as though he is my child. not all of them felt this way.

call me childish or leaving in a dreamland.

that's me again.

weird me.

i miss all my EK children very very much.. hope all of them will grow up pretty, cute, handsome and innocent at heart always.. <3

signing out... 12.00pm

not in the mood

2010-07-27T15:33:00.003+08:00

i am just not in the mood for anything.

there are a list of things for me today. but i just can't get down doing it~

after resisting the idea of the teacher coming to sit in, thickening my skin in hope that the teacher would not come, after crying really hard and then finally accepted the teacher could just come.... the teacher is not coming after all. as she has something on.

feeling really moodless at the moment and tired...

my eyes hurt. my head hurts. i just want to take a nap.

my optical mouse which i love lots is spoilt. should i buy something better, much more expensive or should i just stick to the one i love, the color, cheaper but not that good.

signing out... 3.38pm

EK, new teacher, last request

2010-07-27T10:00:00.007+08:00

i know i am being childish. but i am just like this.

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tml is my last day of work at the woodlands kindergarten, EK. remembered how much heartache when i first started there 2 years ago and slowly in turned into love and friendship with the children and towards the teachers.

this year's k2 batch is the only batch that i had taught since they were k1. the connection i have with them is so much so much. i really miss them. since 3 weeks ago.. and finally. tml is gonna be the last day.

my supervisor had found a new teacher to replace me. and she wished, as well as the new teacher wished to meet my children in advance. which is tml. my last lesson. i am fine if tml ain't the last day. i am not uncomfortable with her coming. but, i just wish to spend my last lesson with my children one last time.

my brother thinks i am childish i know. others also think that way.

i had never wanted the teacher to not come that much that i actually ask the supervisor could she not.

sad sad sad.

just hope the new teacher would not.

i dun care if the supervisor thinks i am childish.

i just only have this one last request.

signing out... 10.07am

secondary team gathering

2010-07-23T21:36:00.001+08:00

yesterday i met up with grace and my secondary school badminton team friends.

and i am happy.

although i am older now...

but i am happy i once used to be happy and had happy memories with my friends *^_^*

thank you~

signing out... 10.00pm

gathering with childhood friends

2010-07-19T23:48:00.004+08:00

regarding yesterday's entry...

me ain't unhappy my friends are starting work soon. neither am i unhappy that i will be starting work soon. i should be happy for all of us. and i am. just a lil sadden that everyone will be leading a life of their own. a life whereby each and everyone works for their own future. though it is normal for ppl to slowly distance from each other. however, i need some time to get use to it.... everyone is gonna work for life from now on. at least most of us will be.. a new phase in life - requires some time to get use to.. =/

whatever it is, i treasure each moment i had with all my friends. from childhood, pri, sec, poly till uni... i will remember all the moments that's shared with all my good friends =)

today was also a moment i treasured lots.. somehow, i seems to talk too much that i felt my jaw hurt.. haha.. met up with my childhood friends - peiying and shu hui for lunch, singing session, dinner and drink with peiying... sang songs which reminded us of when we were young. songs like m2m, westlife, britney spears, mariah carey etc............ after dinner, peiying and i slack at one corner of starbucks sipping grean tea while catching up before she flies off for her studies again..

how should i describe the feeling..

it was just purely great! i am glad. am happy today ^-^ thank you~

nite nite~

signing out... 12.08am

time to rest. but yet too late to rest

2010-07-19T00:52:00.003+08:00

today is a great weather.

weather to sleep. and, i am gonna sleep soon~ ^^

tml / later, i will be meeting my childhood friends. before one of them leave for studies once again. =) maybe i just want to go out play and relax. thus, i specially took leave for tml. though there's lots of work to be done. kumon toa payoh lor 4 is having a free trial period for kids as well as parents. a kind of promotion advertisement to increase the number of students. is actually happening at all kumon outlet.. =)

anyway, i am glad to take a break after working so hard. well, indeed, some says i brought it for myself. but on the other hand, i wish i dun have to. thus, i shall treasure my rest day tml. still looking forward to learn skating. will i squeeze out some time for myself? since i am working for like all 6 days a week with only one day free... sigh.............

2 more weeks to start work. full time job. as a kindergarten teacher. in the end, i am still back at teaching.... =/ =] =) lots of friends to meet up. especially those who are starting work like next week as well as leaving in 2 weeks time..... so little time for me. so many friends to meet. will i make in time?

time to sleep~ before i leave. one thing that made me sad - kids not doing their work. solution. dun care. [can i?] one thing that made me happy - i finally trimmed my hair... it was getting a lil irritating and my hair was getting damaged.... so i finally got it treated and trimmed. style: short at the back. long at the side. fringe - as usual, the bangs. think i suit that? =)

goodnight~

signing out... 1.00am

smell of rain

2010-07-15T23:24:00.002+08:00

tonight, i suppose might rain..

cos i can smell the misty rain.. it makes me feel peaceful.. maybe i will sleep earlier and well tonight.. *weak smile =/

signing out... 11.27pm

roller skate, ice skate

2010-07-15T11:15:00.001+08:00

i want to learn roller skate and ice skate..

plus. better time management..

signing out... 11.17am

sick~

2010-07-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

today is a long day with tuition from 10.15am till 2.30 / 3.00pm with a short break in between...

felt i really should treat myself better. dun work so much. take a longer leave or something to regenerate and recuperate. but. somehow, i just could not let go of my work.

so what happened in the end? i fell sick. like right now... =/

#side track# missing my EK kindergarten kids. another 2 more lesson and i have to say bye bye.. ='(

recently i had been hearing news on marriage, getting a house etc etc... i am really feeling old. as a girl... just moments ago, my secondary school guy friend said he had gotten a house with his gf of around 1 year plus. am really happy for him. but on the other hand confused with myself...

but anyway, i must be too dizzy and sickly to know what i am talking now.

so off i am.

#looking forward to learn roller skate b4 work starts aug#

signing out... 8.00pm

失去

2010-07-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

没有人喜欢失去任何东西。

但。。。

每个人都会失去些设么。也会心痛。

我知道我将会失去好多好多人，东西和回忆。不管我多么努力，有些事是不能改变。有些事不能从来。

但。。。

我还是会努力。因为珍惜。

只希望我不要失去自己。

虽然偶而觉得已经开始了。。。

signing out... 10.38pm

to daddy

2010-07-06T23:22:00.003+08:00

to daddy,

wishing you a Happy Birthday today.

i am sorry. sorry for many. for forgetting ur birthday.

signing out... 11.24pm

meeting - childhood friends

2010-07-04T00:32:00.002+08:00

just came home~

i had been going out really frequent and returning a lil late these few days....

but is a great meet up with my childhood friends (def: friends whom i know since i was really young - 8 years? as well as friends whom i used to call 哥and 姐). we seldom really meet. maybe once or twice a year? last time used to be lots of jokes and much more casual talk. but this time round. is about marriage, getting a new house, balloting for a house. yeah. those whom i called 哥and 姐 are getting married. either next year or the following year. they actually already had plans... for those sisters, they are only 2 years older than me? while those brothers, are about 4 years older than me? is alright for guys to get married at 30 and gals to be marrried around 27. i am glad for them while on the other hand, realised how time really flies. last time used to be gf, bf. now, is wife etc... as they talked, the question started to turn to me. i've got no idea. however, i did picture myself to be 33 and above before being able to get married. by then, will i still have anyone left? their question was really difficult to answer and also difficult to avoid.....

however, i was really happy to see my friend who returns only once a year from the states. as much as i envy her being able to continue her study, i am however really proud of her and being her friend. wishe i had the courage to give her welcome hug. but am shy. #^_^#

we will be meeting again very very soon! before she returns back for study...

for myself on the other hand, i will have to try to be positive / optimistic and not let anything get me down..

that's it. goodnight~

signing out... 12.45am

and i thought it was....

2010-07-02T23:55:00.005+08:00

getting better this morning...

i met ben and grace this morning for breakfast whereby darius join us shortly after... is the first time i met ben since i dunno when. 1 year? 1 1/2 year? anyway, it was really great to see him. great to see darius. and great to see grace.. all the good memories that i had during my sec & poly school years with them came rushing back to me.
this made me happy.

although ben is gonna be back for a short time before i dunno when i will be seeing him again. but i am glad he is back and that cos of him, i get to meet darius and grace so soon once again. for the first time since this week? i am happy

however, things didn't quite last during dinner. i had a headache all of a sudden. but i am glad that i actually pull through the night till i got home. cos, it ain't easy to stay in touch with friends after everyone starts to get busy with life like work. so, to be able to have such a chance. i should learn how to treasure. although, i know i am a boring person as well as a spoilsport to not stay out late or wanting to club etc... i am really sorry. but i just really prefer to be home earlier and not interested to go to clubs. though i ever once wonder what it was like. but no longer now. it doesn't matter to me. maybe is the beginning of my boring life.

but. i suppose this is just me. for now.

to friends who are worried of my odd behaviour.... sorry to let ya be worried for me... this is just a transition period. a roadblock that i must try to overcome and i play a hugh role in it. i dunno how to say and what to say most of the time now. but i believe i will be okay.

on a happy note, ever since i watched Nodame Cantabile - the final score (movie), I had started to want to learn a musical instrument. maybe from where i stopped when i was much younger - piano. recently, i had also started / finished the drama serial of Nodame. now, looking forward to Nodame Cantabile - the finale (17th July 2010) i think i am so going to miss the show after the end of all the filiming.. =/ =]

goodnight~

sigining out... 11.59pm

2010-06-27T10:38:00.001+08:00

somehow, i felt i am still not ready to talk..

told my mum.

i no longer know how / what to talk.

signing out... 10.49am

looking forward.......

2010-06-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

lately, well... i also dunno wat to say.

the feelings inside. confused.

my future. confused.

all that was said seems like nothing. till one point of time, i dun want to talk.

what i feel about myself. the way i am. i just hate it and feel super sorry.

anyway, looking forward to start working. looking forward to meet friends. looking forward to more time for myself... =)

signing out.... 10.17pm

父亲节

2010-06-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

today is father's day.

just wanna say, Daddy, Happy Father Day. i wish you would be happier.

sorry it came too late..

signing out... 10.18pm

praying for peace~

2010-06-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

hmmm..

i hope my heart will be much more at ease...

a heart that do not need to care of anything. of anyone. but the cheerful, happy-go-lucky me. however, i am just like this. towards friends and people, i will always feel sorry.

hmm... with such character. but yet so many friends, i am really thankful..

however, i still wish to feel peace in my heart. a feeling like a rainbow on a pure blue sky with many fluffy white clouds....

signing out... 11.15pm

2010-06-15T15:12:00.001+08:00

i feel like killing myself.

cos of me being indecisive. not knowing which is the best choice. arghz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

signing out... 3.34pm

tired~ kumon....

2010-06-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

tired~

i just got home about 30 - 35 mins ago.. showered and now checking my mail.

lots of things happened last week i felt..... however, i just can't spell them out~

i finally decided on what i want to do. but suddenly there's a change in events... once again the insecured feeling.. when can i rid them off~~

anyway, last week's kumon break (no kumon) had resulted in lots of worksheets to mark. that's why i only left at around 11.50 or 11.55 pm yest... feeling the ache at my neck......

so am gonna check my mails, twitter fast and off to rest..

goodnight to all. wish everyone is happy. especially u.....

signing out... 1.00am

turkey - antalya, istanbul part 3

2010-06-13T16:21:00.015+08:00

yoz! finally the last part for my turkey trip - antalya...

25th April

Conference is finally over! Both of us could finally tour Antalya peacefully! It was a super duper expensive day tour that we sign up with the conference organizer. SUPER DUPER! But the tour guide was good. =)

First stop was to an archeological site – Perge (PEHR-geh). Perge is a place with much ancient history from the history of Trojan wars all the way to Goddess Artemis, and Alexander the Great invading the city. At Perge, we saw a lot of ruins that were left since many many years ago. Ruins of a city such as during the Roman Empire…

our tour guide ^-^

entrance to the ruins

Hellenistic-Roman gate-towers.

entrance to the location of the first Roman Bath in the city - southern bath house

Cold bath - Frigidarium (First stop)

Warm bath - Tiepidarum (Second stop) - before proceeding to hot bath, have to wait for their turn

used to be a place where there's a table (i suppose) at the rectangular area. meant to collect money for accessing the bath.

Hot bath area - Caldarium

the type of flooring years ago..

a place whereby statues of warriors were put in the arc area

pillar that has a marble base

a stone wall sign that most likely indicate the following row of shops are selling meat (*the knife and the hook - to hook the meat..?)

corridor of shops on the left and right

entrance to another lane of shop houses

chairs and supposingly "chess set" outside an entrance for the men. also an indication that the following row of shops are clothes or jewelry shops for the ladies. "chess set" is for those men who have to wait for their ladies finish their shopping.. =p

Next stop is Aspendos Theater – a very well preserved Roman theater in Turkey whereby concert was held last time. But in order to preserve it, another theater was built while the Aspendos Theater was used as a tourist attraction. =) Once again, this historical attraction has got to do with a Roman – roman emperor.

exterior view of the theater

a picture that can be seen on the ticket last time. a sad face = sad play will be played

apsendos theater (view: facing the audience from the stage)

climbing up the stairs of the sitting area

at the top of Aspendos theater

a nice tour guide that we briefly met showed / told us history of the theater. kept telling us that we look like korean / japanese.

After visiting the theater, we had lunch which was included in the tour package, a very pathetic lunch – bread with small piece of ham, slice of cake, orange, apple, and tomato. Plus! We had to stand under the hot sun to have it. While we enjoy the view of a river. Well, at least the view was really rather nice =)

=( lunch... =p

view at the top of the bridge

The last stop before our trip ended was a visit to Side (SEE-deh). It is said to be a traditional Turkish Mediterranean village with Roman ruins. Mr tourguide said that it was once give the Greeks to run the village although it belongs to the Turks. It is actually located really near the see. I suppose it is also near to Greece… The main attraction is actually twin Temples of Apollo and Athena whereby both Apollo and Athena were said to be the major deities of the city. We visited the temple of Apollon whereby description said that it was decorated with Medusa heads. I suppose there is a special reason why it was decorated with Medusa’s heads since Medusa was said to be feared by people many many years ago.

temple of Apollo and Athena

*note: Medusa's head..

26th April

Goodbye Turkey.

Woke up super early, 5plus turkey time to take the conference bus to Antalya airport before taking the flight back to Singapore~ Did not sleep at all during the flight. But instead spend most of my time watching movies! Haha… watched extremely lots of movies since it was a 13++ hours back to Singapore. Plus! I managed to “learn” some Korean words on the plane whereby I copied out almost all the Korean vocabulary that was found on the “learn a language program” keke.. ^-^

Overall, my trip to Turkey was good. I had gain a lot during the trip. More dreams, more wishes and I will work hard for them~ Hwaiting!

Movies watched:

summer wars (Jap Anime – recommend to watch)
spider man III
Jeux d’enfants (French; story line not that nice)
A shine of rainbows (very nice and touching. Got me crying non-stop =p)
Nodame Cantabile The Movie I (really good. Got me thinking a little. Not anymore now though)

signing out... 5.45pm